- JjaroPrime
- |
- Exalted Member
"Floating soundlessly off the shoulder of Orion...Frozen Deep within the Silence of Sleep...Ahkalki Her Husband Lies Dreaming."
I, SolCore
Current mood: Song:love Sensuality devotion, Artist:Enigma
2003-03-03 - 10:22 a.m.
[TRANSMISSION]
Durandal V.0101
Suicide.Log
In the Forest there is a Monster…and it looks just like me.
Drowning.... falling into the vast sea..dying..slowly...I drift back and forth between the Brutal Reality of my situation...and visions of my former life...s'funny how it came to be like this...I remember now the sky so blue. Rippling in the distant sky above me...I smile and know that it will soon be all over.
So are you coming....
What??
yeah....I am.
no...ill be there in a minute.
What...is it real.
Your a madman...all powerful...
Wait...let me tell you a tale.
I journeyed into the farthest reaches...I was supposed to die there in the frozen waste of the south..
I was tired you see.... It was a warlike era for all things that lived under the sky. Animals against Angels..
I wanted to die...waited out in the open on the coldest day other year.... I saw things...moving things living shadows...my past...my future...my memories...all of them. I knew I was not going to die here...for I saw things that were to happen in my lifetime....
NO!!!!
Those who search for death never find it do they jaime…When I realized that my life was not truly my own, I began to search for all my names….and found a history.
There was a yesterday that I cannot remember and a present that cannot be until it is made past…
She never came in this life., not yet I suppose. And if she did I was not able to see her.
When I was but a child I understood that not everyone thought or felt the same as I did. There would only be one who would ever know how it was to exist in a world so strange. Made stranger by being a stranger…don't be a stranger.
I like to think upon things that never existed…made real by my thoughts and words…I remember the past. Men knew how to lived back them. They knew how to feel and were not afraid to do so.
Oh Nouen. I destroyed so many people…without question…until I too was destroyed by my own hatred.
Huh…you're ranting….
I'm being saved…. from where…. to when…she comes…. as radiant as ever…I am blinded by her radiance…. She gives me comfort…. she knows that everything will be alright…her words move over me as living thing…and I knew no despair…I did forget …and reflected in her eyes I saw mercy, and marvels, and the understanding that everything that is, has a purpose, and that purpose included everyone. On a deep and personal level…Her voice mixed with the living and dead…her words would haunt me for the as long as I live…her words make sense of everything…She gives me peace. She gives me meaning. And Who is she I wondered then, she is that which without, would make life pale and unending. That is who she was…..unreal…..as I laid floating above the world…yes you are dying I thought…..and like that I was dead.
The Bond I felt on that day…went both ways…She would have me in the end…though I will never see her until then…
Cannot you understand….cannot you see….My bullets fly swift and quick…laying impure souls to their eternal rest…HELLSING!!!!!!HELSSING!!!! SEARCH AND DESTROY ALL LIVING DEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA…yeah I am the NO LIFE KING!!!!!
I am Chanly, I devour my wings to keep me tame.
[TRANSMISSION END]