- last post: 01.01.0001 12:00 AM PDT
Posted by: Scorptank
Hough Jass:
Don't lean on the CAPS like that.
The story can't be published because Mr_Clark doesn't have a contract with Bungie (does he?)
Ah, I must come clean. This will indeed be how Halo 3 plays out, as I am secretly Eric Nylund in disguise. My reason for decepting all of you was so that I could put forth many of the ideas Bungie was hoping to use in the game, with a general overview, and see how it was received. Obviously it has gone well, so expect many of these developments to occur in the game, which of course, will be released simulteneously with the arrival of the PS3.
....seriously though, I know Bungie would never offer anything so lucritive as a publishing deal with myself. I'd have the inkling that the corporate heads at Microsoft would find whoever made such a decision and tomorrow he would be assigned to the post of manure shoveler for the rest of his life.
I'm well aware that as a piece of fanfiction, if I were to ever make a single dime from this story, lawyers would descend upon me like ravenous animals and rip my corpse apart, picking my bones clean until all that remains is the shattered bones of a fledgling writer.
In all seriousness I know my own limits as a writer, and I am the first one to look at something I've written and declare it to be an unwelcome literary addition to the world of writing, and wish for it to be purged from everyone's memories, so that after I have finished publically flailing myself, I could properly create something up to standards.
There isn't a single chapter in this entire story that I don't wish I could go back on and rewrite near completely. As a piece of fanfiction I could do such a thing and avoid public humiliation, but it would be foolish to do so. If you can't have some semblence of standing with what you released to the public sooner, than I see no reason why you would think whatever you may create later on would be able to do so.
Despite the fact that I know just how much I hate my writing, I always try to stand by it, and give the words I have formed some form of reasonable explanation as to why they have been put down.
I believe my problem is that I have no experience as a real author, and therefore the half-assed approach I take with fanfiction appears to me as something I can defend. This is of course total bull, and I should be beaten severely for ever thinking such a thing. This trivial work I call a story would be laughed at by an editor. The spelling errors, grammatical mistakes, and the poor choice of adjectives, scene discriptions, and practically everything else just reeks of someone that is an amateur.
Overall its a good thing that I'm such a jackass towards my writing, as it gives me the urge to always try and improve, to take that one extra step towards the title of 'good' writer. I said once long ago that my goal was to subjugate mankind with my writing, and while it was mainly brought on by an onset of insomnia and temporal insanity, there is some truth to it.
I suppose the point of this rambling is to let you guys know that I don't sit here, staring at my awesomely large number of replies in this thread and the reviews on ff.net, giggling to myself and giving myself pats on the back for being so damn smart. Nor do I construct paper mache hats that bare the title of 'The Princess/King/President of Writing'. In truth what occurs is I stare at my newest creation, shake my head ruefully, and pick up a baseball bat and start beating myself with it, for even thinking that what I'm doing could ever be considered good.
Sure I think I have some good ideas, and I've got an acceptable understanding of the written language. That thought aside, the only part of this story that I believe will ever be a sign of an event that occurs within the next game would be the arrival of the Flood on Earth. This is indeed something I will warn you all and say expect it in Halo 3, because if even I see it as a likely occurrance, than surely the greater minds at Bungie have forumlated a plan that will make it all come to fruition.
You might ask yourself why I am so hard on my writing. Some of you say I am simply trying to be humble, but to my own mind it would seem as if there is absolutely nothing for me to be humble about. The truth of the matter is that what it boils down to is I have such a small ego, that I feel as if anything I do is one step away from being contrived and useless. This is indeed close to the truth I suppose, and I will relate something a friend said to someone else, when trying to explain why I never walk into our group, telling them to "Check this -blam!- out" and showing them the massive amount of responses I get from the awesome people here in the forums and on fanfiction.net.
She said something along the lines of "He has this kind of ageless self-loathing. As if he holds himself beneath all that witness what he does, and lays himself prostate before them, accepting their criticisms as if they are indeed the words of God himself, and he is condemning him to an eternity of damnation. Any and all praise he receives seems to be reflected from this shell he has created around himself, making sure that not a single compliment will ever pierce the haze of hatred and depression that surrounds him."
Granted some of that was just a creative use of storytelling on her part, but for the most it is true. Your praise does however coincide with me, and it is one of the things that makes me think that someday I just might make my writing awesome, and have legions of fans that will watch me, and make internet sites dedicated to describing what kind of socks I wear.
Well okay maybe not that weird.
Back to something relavant for a moment, I shall say that Chapter 18 is not even close to being finished. It will indeed be the largest chapter, and its size is something that even I cannot comprehend, as attaching a number to the piece of work would be like trying to do so to infinitude, and defining the finite state of our universe.
Just for a warning I will say that please don't ask me to release the chapter in two parts. That's a line of thought I just cannot follow. A chapter should stand alone by itself, almost as if it were a short story. It must have a beginning and an end. Without it there is nothing, and the reader is left sitting before the screen, naked and confused, wondering just what it is they have just read. I imagine some would go insane, and start eating their mouse pads, and that is a crime I just cannot be associated with.
So uh...yeah
[Edited on 5/19/2005]