I actually took the time to read all your post but all you said can be condensed down to " boo hoo all the big boys are picking on me" , avoid going into game types where your likely to run into try hards and to use your own words "rapists and animals" (lol), stay out of big team, try rumble pit and 7on7 as they are easier play lists and your unlikely to be spawn killed, or you could actually try to get better and join a team though i still think maple gunman will kick your ass as hes pretty good.