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It's hitting me hard. I want to leave.

For reasons I don't want to explain because they're, well, not allowed, I've been wanting to get up and leave the country. I want to sever all family ties. I want to get up and start a new someplace else.

I feel that in our current situation as Americans we are trapped in the belly of a beast. And the beast is bleeding to death.

You may make assumptions why I feel this way - I can guarentee you what this sounds like is probably wrong. What it has to do with is not directly involved in politics. It is not involved with angst with my family...

Over the past week I've been sick - I've had deep conversations from people who represent many facets of our social culture. This evening I've had an epiphany - and I can't stay. I spent the evening thinking about everything I've spoken about. Everything I've thought.
I'm in a deeply thoughtful mood - and I have reached a level of objectivity that I haven't reached before, never in all my meditations.

I need to get out.
Obbi

  • 09.10.2004 10:48 PM PDT

Devil is Double is Deuce and Joker always trumps Deuce.

Leave. I'll even pack your bags for you. J/K. Whatever floats your boat Obbi. Just don't do anything stupid. Capiche ?

  • 09.10.2004 10:55 PM PDT
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What a dismal feeling! But perhaps you will only flee this blight and stumble on another. I myself wish I could cleanse myself of this rancid stench that is my humanity. At every turn, I find myself face to face with yet another atrocious flaw that makes this wretched race the abomination it is.

  • 09.10.2004 10:55 PM PDT

bah

Just remember, today's epiphany can be tomarrow's "Whoa, was I ever out-of-it." Wait at least a week, and make sure there are no major mood altering events going on in your life right now that might put you in a different frame of mind.

Not that I feel your conclusion is a bad one...

  • 09.10.2004 10:57 PM PDT

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"[History is] a recording of unjustified suffering, irreparable loss, tregedy without catharsis.

dude do whatever feels right, but if you do leave kep in touch ok.

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  • 09.10.2004 10:58 PM PDT
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I realize this, and I'm in that type of situation.

Technically, I won't have the money nor the ability to move out until I'm 18. But once I am I can go anywhere in the world. I have the money. I have the freedom.

But where?

Until I'm 18 I can only think things through. And as for now I can sleep.

  • 09.10.2004 10:59 PM PDT

Devil is Double is Deuce and Joker always trumps Deuce.

Obbi. if this is about trouble at your home, the best thing to do is talk it out with someone. From the sounds of it, your on the edge of a serious breakdown that could lead to depression and suicide if you don't communicate with someone. None of us here can really help you with that.

  • 09.10.2004 11:01 PM PDT
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Posted by: MCs Brother
Obbi. if this is about trouble at your home, the best thing to do is talk it out with someone. From the sounds of it, your on the edge of a serious breakdown that could lead to depression and suicide if you don't communicate with someone. None of us here can really help you with that.


I'm relatively objective, not depressed. The only real subjectivity I'm aware that I'm lending myself is the interpritation of what I've realized.

Believe me, I'm fine. This isn't a call for help, merely a venting of delema I have.

  • 09.10.2004 11:04 PM PDT

Devil is Double is Deuce and Joker always trumps Deuce.

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Posted by: MCs Brother
Obbi. if this is about trouble at your home, the best thing to do is talk it out with someone. From the sounds of it, your on the edge of a serious breakdown that could lead to depression and suicide if you don't communicate with someone. None of us here can really help you with that.


I'm relatively objective, not depressed. The only real subjectivity I'm aware that I'm lending myself is the interpritation of what I've realized.

Believe me, I'm fine. This isn't a call for help, merely a venting of delema I have.


Just making sure. Can't be too cautious.....

  • 09.10.2004 11:07 PM PDT

Devil is Double is Deuce and Joker always trumps Deuce.

What exactly is yout dilemna? If it can't be said, then PM me.

  • 09.10.2004 11:09 PM PDT

bah

You're tone sounded to me like maybe a realization brought on by an important even slated to occur in early November. No, not Halo 2, the only event that is arguably more important (to non-gamers) and which cannot be said here due to possible lockage. All I can say is, look at the positives man. Look at the positives. If you can't see them anymore, you're in a stupor. If you see the postives but realize the negatives outweigh them, go for it.

  • 09.10.2004 11:11 PM PDT
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You're tone sounded to me like maybe a realization brought on by an important even slated to occur in early November. No, not Halo 2, the only event that is arguably more important (to non-gamers) and which cannot be said here due to possible lockage. All I can say is, look at the positives man. Look at the positives. If you can't see them anymore, you're in a stupor. If you see the postives but realize the negatives outweigh them, go for it.


I don't turn 18 until Dec 1st, so making that choice isn't it.

I've put all my thoughts to words. Tomorrow I'll think about what I wrote in a new light.

Or perhaps I should wait a few more days than that. My last 'realization' had me in the same thoughtful frame of mind for days.

  • 09.10.2004 11:14 PM PDT

Devil is Double is Deuce and Joker always trumps Deuce.

N/M. Just read previous post. ^^^^^^^^^^^^ Still confused and in the dark though.

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  • 09.10.2004 11:15 PM PDT
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I'm not going to make assumptions here, but ask yourself if you'll really find what you're looking for elsewhere.

Personally, I'm going to Japan in a year or so. Not on some educational or buisness endeavor, but due to the realization that there really is nothing for me here that is truly culturally stimulating.

I hope for your sake you can sort through this.

[Edited on 9/11/2004 12:34:19 AM]

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Posted by: ObbiQuiet
It's hitting me hard. I want to leave.

For reasons I don't want to explain because they're, well, not allowed, I've been wanting to get up and leave the country. I want to sever all family ties. I want to get up and start a new someplace else.

I feel that in our current situation as Americans we are trapped in the belly of a beast. And the beast is bleeding to death.

You may make assumptions why I feel this way - I can guarentee you what this sounds like is probably wrong. What it has to do with is not directly involved in politics. It is not involved with angst with my family...

Over the past week I've been sick - I've had deep conversations from people who represent many facets of our social culture. This evening I've had an epiphany - and I can't stay. I spent the evening thinking about everything I've spoken about. Everything I've thought.
I'm in a deeply thoughtful mood - and I have reached a level of objectivity that I haven't reached before, never in all my meditations.

I need to get out.
Obbi


I never looked at you as someone I could sympathize with. I was wrong.

  • 09.11.2004 12:14 AM PDT
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Suck it up and deal with it or leave. Stop complaining and do something.

  • 09.11.2004 12:15 AM PDT
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Posted by: Dead_Meat
Suck it up and deal with it or leave. Stop complaining and do something.

You, my good sir, are an example of what is wrong with the world now, kindly leave. Well I'm behind whatever choice you make, and will help in whatever way possible. I won't repeat what other people have said so... Good Luck.
Tristan ;-)

  • 09.11.2004 12:53 AM PDT
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i can understand Obbi. iv been to america and to me it is very depressing. to be in "the land of the free" yet no1 feels safe to say what they are thinking. the saying here in australia is its time for a seachange. if your looking for a country that is multicultural, full of opertunities, be free to express your opinions, 1st world country with great ppl in it (and practically free health care) i sugest you give Australia a look.
Just hang in there until Dec 1 and dont do anything you will regret until then. think about everything before you do it. explore all you options.

  • 09.11.2004 3:00 AM PDT
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Always remeber: If you need to talk to someone, you know where to turn...somewhere else. Ya, i'm just playin'. We are all here if you need us, friend.

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  • 09.11.2004 3:57 AM PDT
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You're planning on leaving the country? If so, you can come to Sweden, because I really need an test subj... ehhh, I mean if you came to Sweden, that would be so cool. I promise I won't kidnap you and use you to power my new machine that will allow me to conquer the world.

  • 09.11.2004 4:25 AM PDT

Devil is Double is Deuce and Joker always trumps Deuce.

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obbi, all you need to do is suck your brothers/fathers dick twice a day for a week and a half and you will be back to normal again


You need to STFU before I really get pissed.

  • 09.11.2004 7:03 AM PDT
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Posted by: d88s a -blam!-
obbi, all you need to do is suck your brothers/fathers dick twice a day for a week and a half and you will be back to normal again


Surgeon General's Warning: Being a troll or spammer may lead to Gigantism, Elephant Man Syndrome or Hyper-Dimensional Dysentry.

Now the public service announcement is out of the way...

The 21st Century, at least its first decade, will be remembered for the way it made everyone feel bad. The current world social climate is quite bleak, and I sometimes tire of it.

My advice would be to have a look at the positive things that are around you. A lot of things I see and hear from the media make me very angry, but I've learned to tune them out. Leaving the country could be a good idea for a while, as it gives you the opportunity to see other people's viewpoints on things, but the best thing, I find, is to go and have a look at the other parts of the country where you live. I don't really like where I live in the UK. I sometimes find it depressing and want to leave, and I've found places in my own country where things don't look so bad.

And, also, I always follow the advice of the Monty Python song: Always look on the bright side of life... *hums*



  • 09.11.2004 7:12 AM PDT
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Posted by: ObbiQuiet
It's hitting me hard. I want to leave.

For reasons I don't want to explain because they're, well, not allowed, I've been wanting to get up and leave the country. I want to sever all family ties. I want to get up and start a new someplace else.

I feel that in our current situation as Americans we are trapped in the belly of a beast. And the beast is bleeding to death.

You may make assumptions why I feel this way - I can guarentee you what this sounds like is probably wrong. What it has to do with is not directly involved in politics. It is not involved with angst with my family...

Over the past week I've been sick - I've had deep conversations from people who represent many facets of our social culture. This evening I've had an epiphany - and I can't stay. I spent the evening thinking about everything I've spoken about. Everything I've thought.
I'm in a deeply thoughtful mood - and I have reached a level of objectivity that I haven't reached before, never in all my meditations.

I need to get out.
Obbi

Wanna be my girlfriend

  • 09.11.2004 9:30 AM PDT
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Wanna be my girlfriend


Well, he's a guy for one, so unless your -blam!-, I'd advise against that...

Why don't you move to Canada? We're right beside the States, American money is worth more here, so you wont be broke. If you want to go back to the States, its as easy as going back accross the boarder. It will give you a good breath of fresh area and new sights/places. People are friendly and you'll have a good time.

Hope you sort things out!

[Edited on 9/11/2004 9:42:38 AM]

  • 09.11.2004 9:42 AM PDT
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Posted by: ObbiQuiet
It's hitting me hard. I want to leave.

For reasons I don't want to explain because they're, well, not allowed, I've been wanting to get up and leave the country. I want to sever all family ties. I want to get up and start a new someplace else.

I feel that in our current situation as Americans we are trapped in the belly of a beast. And the beast is bleeding to death.

You may make assumptions why I feel this way - I can guarentee you what this sounds like is probably wrong. What it has to do with is not directly involved in politics. It is not involved with angst with my family...

Over the past week I've been sick - I've had deep conversations from people who represent many facets of our social culture. This evening I've had an epiphany - and I can't stay. I spent the evening thinking about everything I've spoken about. Everything I've thought.
I'm in a deeply thoughtful mood - and I have reached a level of objectivity that I haven't reached before, never in all my meditations.

I need to get out.
Obbi


go to the middle east youll feel better

  • 09.11.2004 10:19 AM PDT