- last post: 01.01.0001 12:00 AM PDT
Calm down Node. His point is that you shouldnt be making life difficult for your friends, and that was a pretty mean thing you did.
If you were going to do that, then you wouldnt have told people, you would have simply have done it. (Been there if you really want to know, but I was seriously thinking of it).
I can sympathise with your situation, even if not the magnitude of it. Your generating a huge amount of anger (and bloody rightly so) because of people not letting you know whats going on.
But you need to wake up and learn that your just offending your friends. It does jack -blam!-e in the terms of helping you.
Your ill, we all sympathise with you for that. But other people have health problems, they get on with life, and you just have to deal with it. Im not making light of your conditition, please dont take it that way.
All the depression etc I was generating was getting me a lot of sympathy, which I suppose was what I was after, but it didnt do me any good. I also got angry when I thought people didnt feel sorry for me. Ironically, it was the people that were giving me all that sympathy and worry that made me worse.
Yeah, Im being really harsh, but thats what it took for me to wake up at one point. It took someone talking sense and being none too kind, but saying the truth. The sooner you get rid of your rage (or at least channel it), you'll feel better.
And at some point you will want people to treat you normally, instead of different because of an illness/condition.
From many of your past posts I see you have a very level head on you, and thats more than most have in this forum. Have a trip to zanzibar to make yourself feel better in that respect.
[Edited on 5/25/2006]