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Learn to accept people interest.
Posted by: MLP Rainbow Dash
Since you've posted and this topic either is or isn't flooded (probably the former by now), I guessed you've stopped reading long ago...
But Deej, if you are still reading I'd like to shed some light on it a little bit (or at least with what happened to me).
I've been around these forums since '06 if I remember correctly and created my first account here shortly before (or after) Halo 3's launch. Several unsuccessful accounts later I finally linked it. The three main accounts I've used here were "G01D3N M0NK3Y" or some variation of it, "Horseman of War", and my current "MLP Rainbow Dash". I planned on using my Horseman account forever but I left B.net for around 9 months and came back to "PONIEZ EVERYWHERE".
I had tried for Coup before and could never figure it out. When I came back I tried again and to my surprise I found out the "Ponies" were more intertwined into this site than I thought. So I decided to give the show a try. I'm a man of principles and I will never judge something someone likes until I've tried it myself.
I can tell you right now I didn't like it... at all. But the first 'Episode' was a two-parter. A story that continued two episodes, moreso, so I again decided not to judge it without finishing it. "Oh my lord, my brothers are going to come in and see me watching it..." was my thought process for a while.
Haha, and the more I watched it the more I genuinely grew to like it. I don't watch it to troll, to make others angry, to rub it in their faces, I watch it because I genuinely enjoy it. Yes, I know its weird and if you didn't have that Gold Plated honor I'd be expecting a dozen or so hate PM's with the sole purpose to try and make me kill myself, to be honest.
But because you have that entitlement, I'm going to go ahead and assume we have the same principle and that you haven't yet judged me... at least until you know more about me. (Damn Past/Present Tense switching.)
Kindergarden, Mrs Stieshen was my teachers name. I was young of course, as with all the other students. I thought I was in love as many little kids do. Her name was Lauren. I don't want to go into detail about the following... eh, predicament... but she quite literally gathered her friends and pointed and laughed in my face. She threw things at me and made fun of me.
Oh dear, it all seems so trivial now, but when you have the rest of your class pushing you, shoving you, hitting you, and generally trying to beat you up and send you to the hospital
simply because you spelled a girls name wrong and they all liked her, and you are in KINDERGARDEN... its just... *Sigh*
Anyway I developed an extreme Social Anxiety Disorder (ironically "SAD" in shorthand) and it turned out to rule my life. 14 years I lived with a click in my brain so powerful I couldn't move my eyes a certain way without thinking people are talking about me behind my back, making fun of me. I couldn't walk without feeling scared or embarrased, I couldn't talk without my blood pressure and heart rate hitting dangerously high levels. Fall, Noose, and Knife were the ways I attempted suicide (yeah corny and un-heartfelt I know, I've been told). I dove deep into depression twice.
But I'll stop with the unoriginal excuses there.
I watched and started to like the show. And why is it so wrong for somebody who grew up with Disney? Why is that odd for someone who liked Rio? Puss in Boots? Tangled? You know, the current Disney/Kids animated Movies?
I created the MLP Rainbow Dash profile because I wanted... you know what I really don't know why. But I created it under a Ban on my Horseman profile given to me by Qbix (I still think that ban was generous Q) and an extended ban established on this profile by the wonderful Disembodied Soul (which I figured would happen upon creating this account but did it anyway.) Yeah, star player here huh?
Unmoved by the fact that I had "Troll" and "Brony" stereotypically emblazoned on my Title bar when I joined the Coup group, I made some friends. Even though the first words I received were "You are not welcome here." These guys pointed me toward the MLP group to which I was promptly denied either 2 or 3 times.
When one of the lovely coup moderators helped me get into the MLP group I was extremely scared, and embarrassed about every little thing I did. But to them it didn't matter what I did, they accepted me anyway. Hell, the first words I got from a member there were "------- is my XBL and of course you can always contact me here if you need a shoulder to lean on or just someone to talk too." I don't know why they cared about me but they did. And honestly, I owe them my life for it.
For what? Well, just take a little look at my Steam Bio...
(...which I'm proud to flaunt by the way):Why I like the show? I don't really know. Animation? Believably "human" characters? Truly, I cannot tell.
But I can tell you this:
I'm here and always will be, simply because of you guys. Honestly, you helped bring me back to who I am and who I enjoy being most... Me.
Its not just the show anymore. The community, you guys; you have all changed so much about me and helped me through severe anxiety (whether you know it or not). For that I cannot thank you enough. I'm serious too: Social Anxiety Disorder ruled my life. How I lived, walked, talked, everything. But whatever magic you guys have about you, whatever it is you do... it worked. I just naturally don't feel anywhere near as much anxiety about it anymore.
And you know what? I owe you all more than I even seem to believe. You all accepted me, and if you choose to believe that I am who I am because of you, then welcome to the light; 'my' light. My home is your home. My happiness, because of you. Never before have I seen so many come together under the same banner, for so many different reasons, and be so welcoming. Especially to me.
Haha, and honestly? It was a pleasant change of pace.
I don't think the word "Brony" can cover it anymore. No. In my eyes, we are more than that now.
You, me, we are all... Family.
I love you guys like my brothers, and I shall consider you as such. You are all among the finest human beings I've ever had the pleasure to meet.
...and those, haha, THOSE are some words I can stand behind.
With Everything I Have:
~Matthew (MLP Rainbow Dash)That was a message to many of the other Bronies I met in the MLP group. I'm not a Brony because of the show. I'm not a Brony to troll, or because there seems to be a bandwagon, I'm a Brony because the show led me to them. A group of guys, a bunch of friends that literally dragged me out of a depression and helped me out of my Social Anxiety Disorder (which I don't have anymore in the slightest) to make me who I am today.
They helped me get through what my family passed off as "just a stage" and for that I owe them everything... quite seriously.
Whether I stop watching the show or don't I will always remember them and what they have done for me. I honestly hope to meet some of them one day and I have no problem flying around the world to do it. They saved my relationship with my Fiance. They saved my relationship with my Family. They saved me from myself.
...and with the Brony community I'm watching things like this happen everywhere. Everybody has a story, and everybody cares to here it. Well NEARLY everybody.
But to clarify:
> My coup is not here to try and rub "Bronyism" in people's faces. Its here because my life has been brightened (and a rainbow is the best color on the world.) I like it, you don't have too :) That's why its 'my' coup. But seriously, if you don't like it there are ignore features in my Signature if you didn't already know. I wont take offense to it if you block me.
> I watch a show for little girls because I genuinely enjoy the show. I laugh from it like I was still a child (I'm 19) and it eases the stresses of my everyday life. I don't worry about my Fiance's family's problems, or my family's problems anywhere near as much... and they are BIG problems.
> I came because of the show, I stayed because of the community.
> Yes, in the community you will find people that fap or "clop" to erotically drawn colorful cartoon horses but I tend to stay away from that side of the community. At least as far as I know. They like what they like and I wont pass judgement or get involved. There are several sides to every community, and everybody finds their friends.
> No I do not fap to horses.
> *Zips Flame Suit*
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TL;DR~ Eh... well... this may be difficult. Odds are if you didn't read my story, you didn't care enough to hear it anyway.
I'm also terribly sorry if I've offended everyone or anyone. I really, really didn't mean too.
...and now I wait for hateful PM's.
*catches breath*
Darn Dash that alot of text.
I can see what your trying to say. People have different interest in different thing. Most people find it easier to bash stuff.
THAT IS THE DUMBEST THING TO DO.
Give new thing a try you might like it.
Or you might be one of those idiots who just follow the crowed and never make your own choices.
+1 Dash and here a cookie.