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Posted by: AJ7188
When I was drunk my friends and I had a contest to see who could cut their wrists the most.
Ok...thats a new one...

  • 11.30.2012 9:50 PM PDT
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Posted by: Chester Duncan

Posted by: AJ7188
When I was drunk my friends and I had a contest to see who could cut their wrists the most.
Ok...thats a new one...


I do crazy s**t when I'm drunk.

  • 11.30.2012 9:51 PM PDT

-I was here

well, one time I was -blam!- around with a piece of glass I found making fun of emo kids and I accidentally slit my wrist.

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Posted by: Chester Duncan

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Posted by: MarlboroMan
Yeah, when I was 18 I hit a big depression.
I was unemployed, socially awkward, and my parents were threatening to kick me out because I couldn't find a job.

Tried to kill myself twice, once with an overdose but somehow I came out of it. Took about 15 of my moms prescription pills and was never caught either. Just woke back up in my bed. I honestly don't know how I survived, unless that amount wasn't enough.
The second time, I tried to hang myself. The rope snapped.

After that I talked to my parents and told them everything. Was in therapy for about 3 years.

Now, at 25 years old, I realize that the reasons I tried to commit suicide were so stupid and I still can't believe that I actually tried.

A lot of things look stupid in retrospect. If you can learn to mature from those mistakes they're not mistakes, rather life lessons.
I wish other people woulds see it that way. I never cut myself so others would worry about me. I did ir becuase at the time it helped me.

I had some stupid girl at my school who was never a cutter, but learned from the girl I discussed ITT, and also used it for attention. She cut herself because the guy she like didn't like her back, and she showed it to him.

  • 11.30.2012 9:51 PM PDT

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Posted by: Chester Duncan

Posted by: deadlyfluffball

Posted by: Chester Duncan

Posted by: Decieved Soul
It hurts when my friends do it. My bestfriend does it sometimes and it's so sad... Like to watch someone you care deeply about. Ugh
Thats what my ex said about me. All I did was fake a smile and said I was fine and I was doing it not to hurt myself but to help myself.


Was your arm stuck in a rock,an over weight old man or that ex girlfriend while she is asleep? How did cutting yourself help otherwise?
I was a teen, it made sense at the time. I'm 21 now, I stopped cutting when I was 17. I'm not saying it was smart, I'm just saying at the time it helped.


Whatever floats your boat man, whenever I'm sad....actually I don't remember really being depressed ever. At least not in any bad way, I do worry about when I laughed manically and could not stop for the life of me when the family dog died.

I just think that was sort of that thing where you know you can't do anything about the situation, so the only thing you can do is laugh it out....or something to that effect.

Oh and deaths of relatives never really bothered me either, mostly because I did not know them very well, or at least hopefully it's because I didn't know them very well.

  • 11.30.2012 9:52 PM PDT


Posted by: IlluminatiNWO

Posted by: Chester Duncan

Posted by: IlluminatiNWO

Posted by: MarlboroMan
Yeah, when I was 18 I hit a big depression.
I was unemployed, socially awkward, and my parents were threatening to kick me out because I couldn't find a job.

Tried to kill myself twice, once with an overdose but somehow I came out of it. Took about 15 of my moms prescription pills and was never caught either. Just woke back up in my bed. I honestly don't know how I survived, unless that amount wasn't enough.
The second time, I tried to hang myself. The rope snapped.

After that I talked to my parents and told them everything. Was in therapy for about 3 years.

Now, at 25 years old, I realize that the reasons I tried to commit suicide were so stupid and I still can't believe that I actually tried.

A lot of things look stupid in retrospect. If you can learn to mature from those mistakes they're not mistakes, rather life lessons.
I wish other people woulds see it that way. I never cut myself so others would worry about me. I did ir becuase at the time it helped me.

I had some stupid girl at my school who was never a cutter, but learned from the girl I discussed ITT, and also used it for attention. She cut herself because the guy she like didn't like her back, and she showed it to him.
Those are the types I hate the most...they make those who really have a problem look like nothing but -blam!-en attention whores.

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Posted by: IlluminatiNWO

Posted by: MarlboroMan
Yeah, when I was 18 I hit a big depression.
I was unemployed, socially awkward, and my parents were threatening to kick me out because I couldn't find a job.

Tried to kill myself twice, once with an overdose but somehow I came out of it. Took about 15 of my moms prescription pills and was never caught either. Just woke back up in my bed. I honestly don't know how I survived, unless that amount wasn't enough.
The second time, I tried to hang myself. The rope snapped.

After that I talked to my parents and told them everything. Was in therapy for about 3 years.

Now, at 25 years old, I realize that the reasons I tried to commit suicide were so stupid and I still can't believe that I actually tried.

A lot of things look stupid in retrospect. If you can learn to mature from those mistakes they're not mistakes, rather life lessons.


Yeah, and the therapy and the talking helped big time.
It made me see that trying to kill yourself at such a young age is essentially like leaving the movie theatre during the previews.
(Above is a quote that actually helped me out a lot, can't remember who said it originally but my therapist basically forced it into my head.)

  • 11.30.2012 9:53 PM PDT

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Posted by: goatman327
well, one time I was -blam!- around with a piece of glass I found making fun of emo kids and I accidentally slit my wrist.


Is that a case of what goes around comes around or just blatant karma? Or the effect of just being plain dumb.


Well, hopefully you learned from that experience anyway, and good life to you.

  • 11.30.2012 9:53 PM PDT

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When I was a teenager I was going to end it all one day when my parents were out. Report cards had come out and that was never good news for me.

I honestly think if I would have found a shotgun shell I would have done it. That was in about 1987.

Now it's been so many years it's not a bad thing to talk about. I now work in psychiatry and work with people all the time who are having suicidal ideation.


Not to sound like a know-it-all, but high-school and teen years are probably the hardest. The most pressure to be popular, the most peer-pressure. Stick through it and it will be better.

  • 11.30.2012 9:54 PM PDT

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No. Why would I inflict damage upon myself? That wouldn't make any sense.

  • 11.30.2012 9:54 PM PDT


Posted by: deadlyfluffball

Posted by: Chester Duncan

Posted by: deadlyfluffball

Posted by: Chester Duncan

Posted by: Decieved Soul
It hurts when my friends do it. My bestfriend does it sometimes and it's so sad... Like to watch someone you care deeply about. Ugh
Thats what my ex said about me. All I did was fake a smile and said I was fine and I was doing it not to hurt myself but to help myself.


Was your arm stuck in a rock,an over weight old man or that ex girlfriend while she is asleep? How did cutting yourself help otherwise?
I was a teen, it made sense at the time. I'm 21 now, I stopped cutting when I was 17. I'm not saying it was smart, I'm just saying at the time it helped.


Whatever floats your boat man, whenever I'm sad....actually I don't remember really being depressed ever. At least not in any bad way, I do worry about when I laughed manically and could not stop for the life of me when the family dog died.

I just think that was sort of that thing where you know you can't do anything about the situation, so the only thing you can do is laugh it out....or something to that effect.

Oh and deaths of relatives never really bothered me either, mostly because I did not know them very well, or at least hopefully it's because I didn't know them very well.
Thats one of the things that got me started down that path. My grandpa hung himself and my aunts and uncle's kids started blaming me. The reason was because he lives in another town and before he hung himself he heard I was in town but my aunts said not to go and see him because he was a bad drunk and was drunk all the time I was there till he hung himself.

  • 11.30.2012 9:55 PM PDT

I don't know half of you half as well as I should like, and I like less than half of you half as well as you deserve.

I never physically harmed myself, it was always mental.

As in, I would stand over high place (bridges, roofs, etc) and just think about dying. Now that I think about it, I'm not sure if it was because I actually wanted to or I liked the feeling of the adrenaline that came with the actions. I now jump out of planes, and I love the adrenaline. So, I may have never even wanted to when I was younger. Though, it did mentally hurt me due to the fact that I thought there was something wrong with me. Which caused me to keep my thoughts inward and now I have a hard time expressing my feelings and thoughts to anyone while talking. I need a lot of time to figure out the right words to say.

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nope. Don't really see why anyone would either.

  • 11.30.2012 9:55 PM PDT


Posted by: Chester Duncan

Posted by: Decieved Soul
It hurts when my friends do it. My bestfriend does it sometimes and it's so sad... Like to watch someone you care deeply about. Ugh
Thats what my ex said about me. All I did was fake a smile and said I was fine and I was doing it not to hurt myself but to help myself.
It hurts man. One of my "bestfriends", who I don't hang with anymore, found out and just goes "Oh my God." like annoyed and walked away.

My bestfriend now, she's so amazing and great, has a really bad boyfriend and she cuts sometimes and it's so sad..

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Posted by: Darthbill99
nope. Don't really see why anyone would either.


Depression is the leading factor. If you've never been through it, I'm not saying you haven't, it's hard to understand.

  • 11.30.2012 9:57 PM PDT


Posted by: MarlboroMan

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Posted by: MarlboroMan
Yeah, when I was 18 I hit a big depression.
I was unemployed, socially awkward, and my parents were threatening to kick me out because I couldn't find a job.

Tried to kill myself twice, once with an overdose but somehow I came out of it. Took about 15 of my moms prescription pills and was never caught either. Just woke back up in my bed. I honestly don't know how I survived, unless that amount wasn't enough.
The second time, I tried to hang myself. The rope snapped.

After that I talked to my parents and told them everything. Was in therapy for about 3 years.

Now, at 25 years old, I realize that the reasons I tried to commit suicide were so stupid and I still can't believe that I actually tried.

A lot of things look stupid in retrospect. If you can learn to mature from those mistakes they're not mistakes, rather life lessons.


Yeah, and the therapy and the talking helped big time.
It made me see that trying to kill yourself at such a young age is essentially like leaving the movie theatre during the previews.
(Above is a quote that actually helped me out a lot, can't remember who said it originally but my therapist basically forced it into my head.)
My school and parents tried me to make me see a therapist and I hated it. I would sit across from her for an hour barely talking. It wasn't because I hated her or theapy, its because growing up I was never close to my family so I didn't know how to talk to others about my problems. Hell I still don't, if I have a problem I try to solve it myself or just forget about it,

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Posted by: IlluminatiNWO
Because the hatred stems from yourself. That is why you cut, you hate yourself because you felt it's your fault. Most people would rather hurt themselves than kill someone and go to jail for murder.


Well, I don't hate myself, and I think it is completely their fault. Or at least mostly, but then again nobody really bothers me. All I've got is girl problems, it's pretty fragged too because I found out she liked me since forever ago and then I screwed things up in the timespan of the first two weeks and now she is with someone else.

And in reality they are a way better couple and I wish them well. That one I will admit was my bad though, no reason to go and jump off a bridge though.

  • 11.30.2012 9:58 PM PDT

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Posted by: goatman327
well, one time I was -blam!- around with a piece of glass I found making fun of emo kids and I accidentally slit my wrist.


Is that a case of what goes around comes around or just blatant karma? Or the effect of just being plain dumb.


Well, hopefully you learned from that experience anyway, and good life to you.
probably karma coming around to bite me in the ass. I can be a bit of a dick sometimes.

  • 11.30.2012 9:59 PM PDT

hmm

Nope, I think that inflicting unnecessary pain upon yourself is stewpid.

  • 11.30.2012 9:59 PM PDT


Posted by: Decieved Soul

Posted by: Chester Duncan

Posted by: Decieved Soul
It hurts when my friends do it. My bestfriend does it sometimes and it's so sad... Like to watch someone you care deeply about. Ugh
Thats what my ex said about me. All I did was fake a smile and said I was fine and I was doing it not to hurt myself but to help myself.
It hurts man. One of my "bestfriends", who I don't hang with anymore, found out and just goes "Oh my God." like annoyed and walked away.

My bestfriend now, she's so amazing and great, has a really bad boyfriend and she cuts sometimes and it's so sad..
Kill the mofo...I would. My ex tried to help me and make me talk about it, I'll admit getting pissed off was the stupid choice but I've never been about to talk to anyone about anything like that.

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Posted by: MarlboroMan

Posted by: IlluminatiNWO

Posted by: MarlboroMan
Yeah, when I was 18 I hit a big depression.
I was unemployed, socially awkward, and my parents were threatening to kick me out because I couldn't find a job.

Tried to kill myself twice, once with an overdose but somehow I came out of it. Took about 15 of my moms prescription pills and was never caught either. Just woke back up in my bed. I honestly don't know how I survived, unless that amount wasn't enough.
The second time, I tried to hang myself. The rope snapped.

After that I talked to my parents and told them everything. Was in therapy for about 3 years.

Now, at 25 years old, I realize that the reasons I tried to commit suicide were so stupid and I still can't believe that I actually tried.

A lot of things look stupid in retrospect. If you can learn to mature from those mistakes they're not mistakes, rather life lessons.


Yeah, and the therapy and the talking helped big time.
It made me see that trying to kill yourself at such a young age is essentially like leaving the movie theatre during the previews.
(Above is a quote that actually helped me out a lot, can't remember who said it originally but my therapist basically forced it into my head.)

Yeah, I always think when I get sad or depressed. I'm 15... I could live until 80 year old. That's 65 years of life that I haven't experienced.

  • 11.30.2012 10:00 PM PDT

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Posted by: Chester Duncan
Thats one of the things that got me started down that path. My grandpa hung himself and my aunts and uncle's kids started blaming me. The reason was because he lives in another town and before he hung himself he heard I was in town but my aunts said not to go and see him because he was a bad drunk and was drunk all the time I was there till he hung himself.


Oog, well mine just died of natural causes and they lived in Mexico. So I just kind of stood there awkwardly and honestly a bit bored.

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Posted by: petitminou
Stubbed my toe, bro.

hurt like a mofo, yo

  • 11.30.2012 10:02 PM PDT

No. I take a strong dose of "Manning the -blam!- Up" that is washed down with "Is That All You Got."

Yeah, life sucks sometimes, but cutting yourself, though at times seems like it is helping, is just hurting you. I have went on through life despite all the things thrown at me. It's not hard. Just throw on some tunes, and find something, like video games, to take your mind off of it. Cutting yourself is very counterproductive and it turns your emotional pain into physical pain that cannot be hidden.

  • 11.30.2012 10:02 PM PDT