Posted by: MarlboroMan
Posted by: Chester Duncan
My school and parents tried me to make me see a therapist and I hated it. I would sit across from her for an hour barely talking. It wasn't because I hated her or theapy, its because growing up I was never close to my family so I didn't know how to talk to others about my problems. Hell I still don't, if I have a problem I try to solve it myself or just forget about it,
I had a similar issue, except it was mostly my father.
My mom would always tell me stories about how my father was a fun guy to be around, but now he's just this quiet grump.
About 3 years after I was born my mother was giving birth to a baby boy. Due to the disabilities he had the doctor estimated that he'd only live to be about 12 years old so my parents let him go.
I think that's what is affecting my father the most and through-out my childhood he was never really a dad. As I was growing up I was basically turning into him. Quiet and just never showing any emotions. I blocked out my mom, who was actually trying to help and ignored family.
I feel ya, I still have difficulty expressing emotions correctly but after I let my family in it has helped.
I've come out a much better person then before but I still have my negatives. But hey, we're all human. None of us are perfect. Family...always the root cause. The reason I have a hard time is because my dad use to hit me, like back in 4th grade when i was so sick that my face was starting to turn blue. My dad smacked me over the head because I had to miss classes because my teaher told me to go home and rest, I laid in my bed and dared not to move an inch, I hid my face under my pillows so he wouldn't hear my cough. Also my mother tired to kill me once because I was 12 and my dad was out drinking with his buddies and she came over and went ape-blam!- because I chose to be home alone then go to her house. (they broke up when I was 5) She edned up leaving some scrath marks on my face. The thing is I just pretended like none of it happeneed when I saw them the next day.