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Subject: i feel like will never have anyone to love

If you want to bang your head to hardcore dubstep then ♫ Muffler-Machine ♫ is for you!
Now remember, this is my theme song >:A
Note: Make sure your head is away from your desk unless you want to suffer major brain injuries.

Have fun on the flood, if you go there!o(╥﹏╥)o

Ive never had a girlfriend in my life all throughout these 19 years (almost 20). Never actually found the need because i had my friends, my brother, and i had myself. Didnt think i needed anything else... Till i met someone. These past months ive had a real change in my life, moved to a very far place from where i was. Did it because i loved my brother, because i loved the cold, because i wanted a change. Heh, i definitely got a change just one i wasnt expecting really.

The main reason why we moved was because of a person. To me this person meant nothing besides the fact my brother was in love with her. He had so much history through online dating, playing xbox and skyping all the time talking about their days sharing past memories. A real 2 year friendship i envy to this day.

This girl never appealed to me whatsoever. Probably because i wasnt into anybody at the time and my mentality was different. When they met for the first time it felt ridiculous. They were nervous and my brother had the day to act for impressing. I understood, he was trying to make a second first good impression on the girl he loved over the internet. Months passed, so did i it felt. Saw a brother i never knew, kissing her girl he promised to never leave and always love for the rest of his and her life.

I felt like I was put aside from all the lip smacking going on. I was irritated half the time i was around them. I wonder what she thought of me at first. It got me wondering so i stopped being the person who i was when we first "hung" around. And instead i started acting serious, quiet and a bit dark if i may. Had thoughts i never did think would ever linger in my mind. I hated myself for that, it was ridiculous.

We moved to a college town in the middle of nowhere forest were theres literally nothing to do for people that arent drunks. It wasnt a life i was seeking for. But long story short, i started having feelings for the girl my brother wants to marry one day. I feel alone, somewhat scared i might not ever be with someone and ashamed that i think this way. This is my brother and part of the reason why i left my job to move so very far away. If i ever tell him this he will forever think im looking at her girl and have awkward moments when were all together. And we were brought up like gentlemen when it came to girls.

I can almost say i have fallen in love with the girl but not just yet. Mainly because im very confused and going through a hard time (No job, no house, barely any money). The economy doesnt run so well were we moved.

It feels strange exposing and expressing my thoughts to strangers i more than likely will never see in real life and the weirder part is that i typed this right next to my bro.

Im a creep i know. I feel ugly, dont know if i seem this way to other girls. Its hard for me to talk *sigh*. I just hope for a better future. I like this girl, i really do. Hate how my brother beat me to it.

  • 12.02.2012 1:10 PM PDT
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inb4everyonecomplainsaboutheirlives

  • 12.02.2012 1:11 PM PDT
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Hey, uh, if you like vs threads, then check out this little group right here, if you have the time. It's pretty fun, just hop right in.

This thread makes me feel better about myself.

  • 12.02.2012 1:12 PM PDT

I don't understand why you are telling us this.

  • 12.02.2012 1:12 PM PDT
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"Hoc volo sic iubeo. Sit pro rationes voluntas." - Juvenal

"Scio me nihil scire." - Socrates

This will cheer you up OP

  • 12.02.2012 1:13 PM PDT

You're both jealous of your brother and infatuated by this girl. You don't love her. But you've spent enough time with her, so you've grown fond to her presence.

The fact that you're a loner helps, but seriously you should stop looking at another man's woman, even if it's your bro's.

  • 12.02.2012 1:14 PM PDT
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In my opinion, I don't care who laughs last or first. As long as I laugh in the process, everything is good.

I'm greatly confused on what I'm supposed to be replying to. Are you just expressing your emotions or are you looking for advice?

  • 12.02.2012 1:14 PM PDT

A competitive players main goal is to win.
A casuals main goal is to have fun regardless of whether that results in a win or loss.
It has nothing to do with individual skill or knowledge, it has to do with the reason you play.

Unless you're complete creep. You'll find someone, dwelling in self pity won't help the cause.

Man, there are like 3 threads like these in The Flood every day. It's sad, but we can't really do anything except try to cheer you up.

  • 12.02.2012 1:14 PM PDT

Want Coup? Here it is for Chrome.

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You will get someone someday OP. I have never really felt strongly about girls because I was occupied by other things. Recently this girl has been coming up to me and we have been talking during lunch. I still haven't asked her on a date, but I will.

Just go with the flow OP, if it's meant to happen, it will.

  • 12.02.2012 1:14 PM PDT

Did you try Christian Mingle yet?

  • 12.02.2012 1:15 PM PDT
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do you like muffins?

Hey OP
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=09h7EinWRHE
Life sucks for most of us, and you want me to read that? LOL

  • 12.02.2012 1:16 PM PDT

If pro is the opposite of con, then the opposite of progress is...

Have you considered writing novels?

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Dude... I'm gonna just say it right now. There is no -blam!- way you wrote all that and meant it all.

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You need to brood to this song.

  • 12.02.2012 1:16 PM PDT

I'm not sure if this is serious or not, but either way, the Flood isn't a blog.

If this is serious, I do know how you feel, though...

  • 12.02.2012 1:18 PM PDT

"It is the cruelest fate, to have written words that meant well and see them made wicked and unwise. What was meant to encourage life, used instead to justify taking it."

Everyone in the world has a special someone, somewhere out there, waiting to be their eternal soulmate.
I'm not promising they'll ever be found, though.

  • 12.02.2012 1:19 PM PDT

Name's John. I'm a 21-year-old firefighter/EMT from lolhio who doubles as a die-hard Halo fan. I've been enjoying the franchise since 2001. My favorite iteration of Halo would have to be Halo 2 simply because I never got to experience the joy of a full-on Halo: CE LAN.


If you have any other questions, feel free to ask.

Oh yeah, and boot Zome.


Posted by: CharlesBrown33
You're both jealous of your brother and infatuated by this girl. You don't love her. But you've spent enough time with her, so you've grown fond to her presence.

The fact that you're a loner helps, but seriously you should stop looking at another man's woman, especially if it's your bro's.

  • 12.02.2012 1:20 PM PDT

If you want to bang your head to hardcore dubstep then ♫ Muffler-Machine ♫ is for you!
Now remember, this is my theme song >:A
Note: Make sure your head is away from your desk unless you want to suffer major brain injuries.

Have fun on the flood, if you go there!o(╥﹏╥)o

Posted by: CharlesBrown33
You're both jealous of your brother and infatuated by this girl. You don't love her. But you've spent enough time with her, so you've grown fond to her presence.

The fact that you're a loner helps, but seriously you should stop looking at another man's woman, even if it's your bro's.
The first part makes sense to me. But i actually dont look at her wrong or anything. In fact i look away most of the time but in occasions like watching a movie i find myself gazing at her eyes. I give extreme effort to not look at my brothers girlfriend.

  • 12.02.2012 1:20 PM PDT

Posted by: FatherlyNick
Im the flood's underground member.

...

Ah, who am i kidding, we are all basement dwellers...

- random Floodian truest words ever

If I were you I'd just kill them both

Then they'd have it almost as bad as you

  • 12.02.2012 1:22 PM PDT
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Posted by: Neon Vars
Posted by: CharlesBrown33
You're both jealous of your brother and infatuated by this girl. You don't love her. But you've spent enough time with her, so you've grown fond to her presence.

The fact that you're a loner helps, but seriously you should stop looking at another man's woman, even if it's your bro's.
The first part makes sense to me. But i actually dont look at her wrong or anything. In fact i look away most of the time but in occasions like watching a movie i find myself gazing at her eyes. I give extreme effort to not look at my brothers girlfriend.

Jealousy OP. This is all this is.

  • 12.02.2012 1:23 PM PDT

Posted by: AngryBrute1
Oh yeah, since somebody does not believe what YOU believe; that makes us vapid...
I cannot grasp that what you call "Something happened to nothing, and that nothing became something, and it was smaller than than a period."


Posted by: lI Maverick lI
Find a different girl, tis' all you can do.
Good luck, OP.

  • 12.02.2012 1:25 PM PDT

Halo 3

This is some funky -blam!-. 2 year online dating before ever seeing each other in real life? They are nervous when they see each other. Still fall in love.


-blam!- the modern era.

  • 12.02.2012 1:28 PM PDT

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

I was expecting some weird revelation at the end of it.

Like if you lived in a pineapple under the sea.

  • 12.02.2012 1:32 PM PDT
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Posted by: Metalignus
Unless you're complete creep. You'll find someone, dwelling in self pity won't help the cause.


This. Best advice I would say is just be yourself too. Seriously, I waited 25 years, til yesterday. :D

Still not told anyone else yet though lol!

  • 12.02.2012 1:45 PM PDT

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