I am assuming direct control.
Posted by: True Deception
Posted by: Direct Control
Posted by: True Deception
Posted by: Direct Control
I've been there. I remember one of my friends doing something that made me so mad I felt the hatred course through my veins. It was a very powerful flood of anger, so much so that it was hard for me to restrain myself from lashing out physically on people in no way related.
I found refuge in music, and I spend hours of day containing myself in the lyrics of my music. It eases the edge of the part of that wants to destroy. Give it a go!Okay, now imagine you're feeling that way towards someone you absolutely hated in the first place who has done something that you'll never be able to forgive. That's where i'm at right now.
And are you just talking about listening to music? Or making your own.
I understand. I hate that person very much now. As for the music, I listen. I own a pair of very nice headphones and I have a 100gb collection of music (Often in FLAC) to listen to. I try and connect with the lyrics to understand the singer. It really helps me release. I'll turn off the lights, lean back in my chair and put on some calming music (alt rock) and let it pour over me. It really does help a lot, because otherwise I don't what I would do. That sounds like it might help...but I have a hard time focusing if i'm feeling any large amount of hatred or anger. Everything seems as though it's cast in a sort of fog.
Well, mental fog, lack of focus, sometimes headaches or trouble breathing, and...maybe I missed one or two things. Not sure.
I remember not being able to enjoy anything. I would sleep it off and use music to calm myself. I would suggest going on youtube and just listening to a bunch of songs that you might not have listened to in a while. Also, if you have a close friend to talk it out with, that always help. Unfortunately for me, I have no close friends (Not to suggest I am a loner, my friends just stab me in the back a lot and I don't trust them) to confide in so I was stuck alone with the anger building up. To be candid, I started writing a journal on my computer just so I could vent one way or another.