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That's right. My plumage is brighter than yours.
No no, OP said to talk about sadness, and this is sadness, so you're fine! Plus, anyone can find help in anything--so you talking about it can def. still help out OP.
Posted by: xl OC Girl lx
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Posted by: xl OC Girl lx
Also, playing video games doesn't help. Back in the day when I would play Halo for like 6 hours a day, I didn't realize it at the time but looking back now, it was probably one of the most depressing time of my life. Upon selling my Xbox and never looking back, I now have a social life and feel so happy. I'm just saying, what you might think is helping you may be the cause of your sadness. It was for me.
I feel like I remember you from many years ago....
...and yes, I have to agree with OC. I quit playing XBox and watching a lot of TV around the beginning or second year of high school (I still had a WoW problem for a bit, but I pulled out of it fairly quickly). I started spending more time outdoors, cultivating friendships, improving upon myself. I read more, ran more, worked out more, dated more, worked more, and eventually I was a much happier, less "deluded" guy.
But really, it was when I gave up (or did my best to give up) being attached (to everything, to people, to the world, to my emotions, to who I thought I should be) that I truly felt...peaceful. I am now poorer than I have ever been in my entire life (and I was born into and raised in a poor family), yet I am quite serene. The universe is literally mind-boggling huge. The world itself holds so many wonders. Your mind is a fractal. The potential of the human being is limitless. I suggest exploring the world. Think of it as activating your latent self. Start engaging in activities you might have avoided before due to fear or shame or embarrassment. Challenge your body and mind. And eventually, realize that there is no "you" inside of your mind or body--you are without fixed self. That means that you can be anyone. You are always changing anyway, so don't be attached to who you have been or who you think you should be. Transform!
You probably do. I used to post here a whole hell of a lot haha.
You worded your post very well, and that made me think of something else. I was seriously addicted to gaming. For like two years, all I did was play video games. I didn't even have my first kiss or go on a date until I was 18 because of my lack of a social life before then. I know it sounds pathetic but it really was a bad time in my life. Kids are becoming obese from not seeing the light of day anymore. I missed out on a lot. I mean playing video games once in a while is fine, but I'm not sure I can believe that it can be someone's source of happiness in the long run.
I hope I'm not straying too far from the topic here, but at least it felt good to say that. I've kind of kept that to myself for a while.
I wish I could upvote comments! Your lack of hope in video games bringing lasting satisfaction is something that I share. I think they are an okay past-time...for some people...and they make a pretty cool career choice...for some people. And I don't like to differentiate too much, so I still believe that even while playing video game, you can reach what the Buddha calls "nirvana"...but it's much more difficult that way. Video games are distractions. They pull you out of this world and into another. What is worse, is you begin to care about that virtual world. You feel feel elated or numb when you are there, but anxious or sad when you're not. By using video games merely as a distraction from the real world's problems, you simply repress those thoughts, never giving them a chance to resolve naturally and healthily, and they eat you up till your guts spill out. "Get a social life, make friends, date? Forget it, I will play games and not think about it." "Get started on a career to better myself, help others, and fulfill my dreams? Forget it, I will level up my character." This is the kind of thinking that buries your problems--but your problems live on! They'll pursue you and undermine you unless you meet them face to face.
I have given up on fantasy worlds. They are mere escapes from and evasions of the truth. They allow me to ignore myself and my problems and my friends, but it isn't permanent by far.
Why does anyone want to grow fat in a chair? Why does anyone want to glue their eyes to a video game character all day? Why does anyone want to avoid the daylight like a bunch of vampires? Why does anyone want to miss out on life, with all its ups and downs, regardless of the dissatisfaction it may bring sometimes?
Why does anyone not want to extirpate that dissatisfaction from the root?
I missed out on a lot, too, OC, but I'm happy I realized early enough how anxious and depressed sitting in my room all day playing video games made me, how much it held me back. We're still so young. We have many years to rebound.