Posted by: Haloroach
I was debating whether or not I should have made this thread, but I guess I've decided now. haven't I?
Today is the last day of the year. It's usually New Year's Eve and all that stuff, and everybody's filled with "holiday cheer" and stuff. Not me. Three years ago to today, my girlfriend's grandfather (father's side) passed away in front of me and her. I remember the day, but I try not to. Now each January 31st we just sort of take the day off to give attention to each other for the entire day. No crying, no sorrow, but just this melancholy tinge in the air.
I don't know why, but a normal death, you can get over. Something like this though, where you actually see it happen in front of you, and have your loved one just break down at your side? That stays with you.
Anybody else ever have a similar experience? A death of somebody really close in front of them (I'm not trying to elicit any locked away memories you might have, sorry if it seemed that way)?
Death is a part of life, son. All you should need is to acknowledge that it did happen and that it may have changed you as a person.
I mean if you were stricken by the grandfather's death then imagine a death of a parent, or sibling. That's going to be hell.