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Subject: How happy are you?

Challenge me to a Hawaiian Punch chugging contest. I dare you.


Posted by: mubox47
$.50 in store credit.

Perfectly happy. I have no reason not to be :)

  • 01.06.2013 12:10 AM PDT
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Posted by: WyIdfyre
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Clinically depressed.


I still don't believe this, out of all the people I have helped through depression I just can't. And when you say that do you mean it that you are depressed and it feels like no matter what there's no way out, or you just take what the doctor says and live with it?
No no no, I've not been officially diagnosed, as that would just make my situation much worse. I know from having spent a lot of time around and studying cases of clinical depression in plenty of people, plus it runs in the family.

I've been suicidal for a couple of years, failed twice, slowly getting worse but I'm dealing with it. Been crying almost every night for roughly a year, bar about a month or so.
Facts and figures, if accurate, say I have around 3 years left anyway. (Not cancer, in case I get any undeserved pity in that respect.)
I live knowing that even if I beat those odds, nothing I can do will make me truly happy, I'm too messed up and the world is too imperfect. Coupled with job stress, family issues and other things like mental problems including insomnia. I don't often fish for sympathy and I'm not asking for any, I'm just bored after a lack of sleep and I find that writing tends to keep me relaxed.


Please read this and everything I say

  • 01.06.2013 12:13 AM PDT
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Two movies you should watch: Fight Club and Pineapple Express

"Wait. What do you mean, it's dead?"
"If marijuana is not legal within the next five years I have no faith left in humanity, period. Everyone likes smoking weed. They have for thousands of years. They're not going to stop anytime soon. You know? It makes everything better. Makes food taste better, makes music better. It makes sex feel better for God's sake. It makes -blam!- movies better you know?"

Not very happy for multiple reasons however I will never fall back into depression because of those things. Never.

  • 01.06.2013 12:14 AM PDT

Door Kickers Inc.

I'm just whatever.

  • 01.06.2013 12:17 AM PDT
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Posted by: BC1096
Please read this and everything I say
I'm sorry, and I don't mean to cause offense, but I've heard it all before. I'm too pessimistic and self critical for my own good. For every good thing someone has to say about me, I or other people can come up with at least three bad ones.

[Edited on 01.06.2013 12:18 AM PST]

  • 01.06.2013 12:18 AM PDT
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Posted by: WyIdfyre
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Please read this and everything I say
I'm sorry, and I don't mean to cause offense, but I've heard it all before. I'm too pessimistic and self critical for my own good. For every good thing someone has to say about me, I or other people can come up with at least three bad ones.


Did I mention how many times I attempted to kill myself. Trust me dude, I've been exactly where you are and much farther. Tell me this, when you think about yourself as a human being, not what other people think. Solely what comes to your mind at first thought. What do you say?

  • 01.06.2013 12:21 AM PDT

Posted by: Great_Pretender
Case and point: don't worry about it. Girls start getting boobies pretty soon, and then you'll have plenty of other things to think about. Being an Inheritor is not a life goal.
-TGP-

This video always makes me happy as well.

  • 01.06.2013 12:23 AM PDT

Never make me angry. I am a Hitman and I can easily find you and take you out.

Meh...

I'm glad I have a good family, good health and that I get to eat and drink everyday and have a safe place to sleep.

But the same daily routine makes me depressed. And thinking about my future even more. I don't want to go work until I am 67. I don't want to pay for stuff I don't really need. I don't want to waste my life doing stuff I hate.

That's why later when I'm at around 23 years old I will sell everything I own, except for emotional stuff and then just go out and travel.

I first will buy a backpack ofcourse, some handy tools like a field knife, gas thing, sleeping bag etc. A health kit and some food supplies and a melee weapon that I can defend myself with. But not too much because I can't carry too much.

Then everything I own will be on my back. And I will travel with other people first who have the same idea. And to earn money I will look for jobs here and there and settle down for a few weeks or even a month. I also read a tip to buy a big book of edible plants. There's a lot of edible plants in the world that are very healthy for you.

I don't know a lot about how to get food and water and other stuff, but I know I will find out later, and I can also talk with my travel group on how to survive. :)


I really want to travel because I would love to go out and explore the world. I only have 1 life so I want to spend it well.

So yeah, can't wait for all that! :D

And when that time comes, I will also come here on the Flood to ask my fellow Floodians if they want to come with me.

  • 01.06.2013 12:23 AM PDT
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Posted by: Maximus Decimus
No job, no girlfriend, few friends, just video games. It could be better, but I'm pretty satisfied.


Er...how are you satisfied?
Lot of good games coming out first quarter of this year I'm getting.



No offense, but is that all you have to look forward too? (I don't mean to come off as a jerk in any way)

Aliens Colonial Marines
Crysis 3
Gears of War Judgement
Bioshock Infinite

Yes.

  • 01.06.2013 12:24 AM PDT
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Please read this and everything I say
I'm sorry, and I don't mean to cause offense, but I've heard it all before. I'm too pessimistic and self critical for my own good. For every good thing someone has to say about me, I or other people can come up with at least three bad ones.


Did I mention how many times I attempted to kill myself. Trust me dude, I've been exactly where you are and much farther. Tell me this, when you think about yourself as a human being, not what other people think. Solely what comes to your mind at first thought. What do you say?
Broken, disgusting.

  • 01.06.2013 12:24 AM PDT
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Posted by: WyIdfyre

Posted by: BC1096

Posted by: WyIdfyre
Posted by: BC1096
Please read this and everything I say
I'm sorry, and I don't mean to cause offense, but I've heard it all before. I'm too pessimistic and self critical for my own good. For every good thing someone has to say about me, I or other people can come up with at least three bad ones.


Did I mention how many times I attempted to kill myself. Trust me dude, I've been exactly where you are and much farther. Tell me this, when you think about yourself as a human being, not what other people think. Solely what comes to your mind at first thought. What do you say?
Broken, disgusting.


And now think, how did I become this?

  • 01.06.2013 12:25 AM PDT
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And now think, how did I become this?
It just happened as I grew and started noticing things about myself, physically, personality-wise and emotionally. Social interaction only made it worse, ranging from close "friends" to random strangers. I blame society for a proportion of it. I now find it impossible to think anything positive about myself for more than a few minutes at best.

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  • 01.06.2013 12:28 AM PDT
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Posted by: WyIdfyre
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And now think, how did I become this?
It just happened as I grew and started noticing things about myself, physically, personality-wise and emotionally. Social interaction only made it worse, ranging from close "friends" to random strangers. I blame society for a proportion of it. I now find it impossible to think anything positive about myself for more than a few minutes at best.


Now do this, legitimately look at yourself mentally and physically. If you can come here and speak your mind, your their mentally. If you can deal with all the pressures society puts on you and what you put in yourself and all that strain, your their physically. A broken man or women is one who simply could not live or was driven into insanity. You are not broken. I don't even have to know you personally to know this. I'm not saying this to change anything, I'm stating facts

So now, with what I said, look at yourself for who you want to be, who you were, and who you are now. What do you get?

  • 01.06.2013 12:32 AM PDT
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Dolphins, man. Dolphins. They are gonna take over the world, and kill us all, man! THEY'LL KILL US ALL! Oh no, they will start with Gondile. Haha, hell if they are gettin' me! No way man, I'll kill 'em. I'll kill them all!!!


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Posted by: Gondile
So very, very happy. Finally, after 3 years of cruel depression, happiness. Goddamn it is blissful as -blam!-.


I'm very happy for you then. I hope you never feel that way ever again, cheers!
Here's to it!

  • 01.06.2013 12:33 AM PDT
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Im happy. I have nothing to complain about.

  • 01.06.2013 12:34 AM PDT

Posted by: Kurosaki_Kun

I know, right?
Jay acts like she's better than everyone else simply because she's a chick.
I hope she chokes to death.

I'm sitting in a beautiful chalet watching awesome Sapphire people playing pool. Getting close to snowing outside. This'll be the first time I'll ever see snow.

Right now? Pretty damn fantastic.

  • 01.06.2013 12:35 AM PDT
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Posted by: BC1096
Now do this, legitimately look at yourself mentally and physically. If you can come here and speak your mind, your their mentally. If you can deal with all the pressures society puts on you and what you put in yourself and all that strain, your their physically. A broken man or women is one who simply could not live or was driven into insanity. You are not broken. I don't even have to know you personally to know this. I'm not saying this to change anything, I'm stating facts
Just saying, I would dispute these. I'm surprised I can still concoct a coherent sentence, to be honest.

So now, with what I said, look at yourself for who you want to be, who you were, and who you are now. What do you get?A mess.

  • 01.06.2013 12:36 AM PDT
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Posted by: WyIdfyre

Posted by: BC1096
Now do this, legitimately look at yourself mentally and physically. If you can come here and speak your mind, your their mentally. If you can deal with all the pressures society puts on you and what you put in yourself and all that strain, your their physically. A broken man or women is one who simply could not live or was driven into insanity. You are not broken. I don't even have to know you personally to know this. I'm not saying this to change anything, I'm stating facts
Just saying, I would dispute these. I'm surprised I can still concoct a coherent sentence, to be honest.

So now, with what I said, look at yourself for who you want to be, who you were, and who you are now. What do you get?A mess.


Now pick up the pieces and put it together.

  • 01.06.2013 12:37 AM PDT
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Now pick up the pieces and put it together.
Not that simple.

  • 01.06.2013 12:39 AM PDT
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Posted by: BC1096
Now pick up the pieces and put it together.
Not that simple.


Yes it is. Put effort in it.

  • 01.06.2013 12:39 AM PDT

Generalizations.
Helping idiots hate other idiots since people have existed.

If you want something bad enough, you'll find a way.

If you don't, you'll find an excuse.

  • 01.06.2013 12:40 AM PDT
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Two movies you should watch: Fight Club and Pineapple Express

"Wait. What do you mean, it's dead?"
"If marijuana is not legal within the next five years I have no faith left in humanity, period. Everyone likes smoking weed. They have for thousands of years. They're not going to stop anytime soon. You know? It makes everything better. Makes food taste better, makes music better. It makes sex feel better for God's sake. It makes -blam!- movies better you know?"

Well insanity is a -blam!- to fix. I would know.

  • 01.06.2013 12:41 AM PDT
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Now pick up the pieces and put it together.
Not that simple.


Yes it is. Put effort in it.
I am. I already have my family and partner trying to help me too, but things just aren't coming together. With my personal issues, it's entirely down to me. As I said, I have a variety of mental problems that make things difficult too.

I'll find problems because that's a flaw with my own personality. I can't help it, it just happens. It's part of the way I plan and process things.

  • 01.06.2013 12:45 AM PDT
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Posted by: WyIdfyre

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Now pick up the pieces and put it together.
Not that simple.


Yes it is. Put effort in it.
I am. I already have my family and partner trying to help me too, but things just aren't coming together. With my personal issues, it's entirely down to me. As I said, I have a variety of mental problems that make things difficult too.

I'll find problems because that's a flaw with my own personality. I can't help it, it just happens. It's part of the way I plan and process things.


Would you say I helped out though?

  • 01.06.2013 12:49 AM PDT
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Not very happy. So much that is wrong. I know I could change it, but man it sucks to be something that you know you could do way better than. Seems like life is just empty for the time being.

  • 01.06.2013 12:50 AM PDT

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