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One does not choose a destiny, his destiny is bestowed, shaped and formed, from the soul.
Posted by: WyIdfyre
Posted by: BC1096
Posted by: WyIdfyre
Clinically depressed.
I still don't believe this, out of all the people I have helped through depression I just can't. And when you say that do you mean it that you are depressed and it feels like no matter what there's no way out, or you just take what the doctor says and live with it?No no no, I've not been officially diagnosed, as that would just make my situation much worse. I know from having spent a lot of time around and studying cases of clinical depression in plenty of people, plus it runs in the family.
I've been suicidal for a couple of years, failed twice, slowly getting worse but I'm dealing with it. Been crying almost every night for roughly a year, bar about a month or so.
Facts and figures, if accurate, say I have around 3 years left anyway. (Not cancer, in case I get any undeserved pity in that respect.)
I live knowing that even if I beat those odds, nothing I can do will make me truly happy, I'm too messed up and the world is too imperfect. Coupled with job stress, family issues and other things like mental problems including insomnia. I don't often fish for sympathy and I'm not asking for any, I'm just bored after a lack of sleep and I find that writing tends to keep me relaxed.
Please read this and everything I say