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People are privy to lovelives, everybody wants a boyfriend or girlfriend~ it makes ya feel good, for various reasons in our lives. In late elementry school and middleschool, it's just a name more than anything else, and i guess in a way a "popularity thing". Some people hang onto that idea of it into highschool, some are just after the action, but then you get a good amount of people who truly want a love for life, and search for it.

Highschool relationships, i'd say, are often that learning point in your life...truly finding out what it all means, what's important to you, and all that jazz. Everybody'll recognize the attractiveness of the opposite sex, some'll confuse lust with love, some will just go with the flow..accepting anybody who'll take them, in the hopes of being treated to a fun/great experiance. Some'll misinterpret excitement with love, and most of these relationships aren't going to make it into peoples' twenties. It's not because they shouldn't have happened, but because everyone is still learning what they're really after, what it really takes, and how important it all is to you.

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I'll continue to the analysis stuff later, but for now i'm going to share my own experiances~ you can skip them or not, your call...I'll show the end of it all with another solid line

First Love: Mia
We started out as just friends. We met online (lame, fine :P) through a common friend, and at first we were just that..friends. It all started as just IMing a lil RP, and it wasn't long before i was excited each time i popped on and found her~ she'd be the first i'd look for on my IM list. From there i began to look forward to talking to her on there each day, looked forward to hearing about her day, looking forward to hearing anything she'd tell me. And i learned to speak my mind more, as she prompted me to tell her my opinion/thoughts/feelings on various matters.

We started dating online, after a few months of knowing each other, and started talking over the phone maybe 6 months after that, probably less..i really don't recall anymore, but i was really embarassed the firstime i try. I remember putting in the number, pausing..and hten hanging up, before even pushing "call", lol. It took a few days before i honestly called, and i was so embarassed/shy! I wasn't sure what i would say, i wasn't sure how she'd sound...but it didn't matter, she took everything over~ speaking of her own accord, all i had to do was reply to her and let her know i was still listening. The first few calls were like that, and everytime i looked forward to talking to her, learned to pipe up and speak my own thoughts, and she loved it. We'd laugh, tell stories, joke around, and play with these theory/ideas that i'd have built to entertain myself in all the time before i had met her. She was like an angel, the first person to ever enjoy my worlds and thoughts, and she'd even add to them and question them..she totally immersed herself in my train of thought, and i loved her for all of it.

She taught me what it ment to be loved, what it ment to be trusted, and she awed me with how honest and energetic she was. I'd never been complimented on my voice, she told me that it was relaxing/calming, and that she looked forward to hearing it everytime i called or she did; i'd never been told that i ment the world to someone, and they couldn't imagine how their life would have gone without me...she did; I had no idea what love even was before her. She truly made me who i am today, and i tried to return the courage she gave me, by helping her through her moments of sadness, when things just hadn't been going right that day.

I dont even remember what the arguments were about anymore, but eventually things got messy and she'd yell and "break up" with me in a fit...and it'd tear me apart. It happened at three different occasions, and everytime it'd be a while before we could talk to each other. It wasn't because we didn't want to, we simply couldn't~ our emotions were too much of a wreck, we'd hear the other crying and whichever had been holding it in, would lose it and we'd have to hang up cuz nothing was being said. Around the third time, i decided to run from it all, and said that i didn't want to get back together again. I cried in fits for months, whenever there was time alone and i had a chance to think about it all. We began talking again a lil while ago..no strings or anything, just talking and maintaining a friendship...it's really nice, cuz we still have that openess with one another, we just had to catch up after a year or so of time.

Sam
My first girlfriend following Mia, about a year later. I'd known her for a while through swimming, but i'd never known she had feelings for me. She started talking to me a lot all of a sudden though, and it was nice to have someone to talk to since Mia. I was still really hurt over Mia, hadn't gotten over it really...but she was there, provided me a place to go and hang out~ her whole family was really kewl, and i really felt something for her. Everything was great, but there would be moments where we simply didn't have anything to share. That was really weird for me after a certain point, and i just figured we needed to do more together~ so we started playing video games, then card games, and just enjoying each others' company. She was really important in me moving on from Mia, and i feel i did her a crime in being unable to return her feelings as strongly as she sent them to me. I became frustrated with myself, and took it out on her~ which i regret even more, because it took forever for us to even contact each other again.

2nd Love: Janae
It all started at school, i was bored sick as a TA in math class, and she randomly walked up to me one of the days and asked me about my halo shirt~ i was just excited that somebody was talking, it's kinda hard to meet peepz when i'm stuck behind the teachers' desk and everyones' infront of me -_-;. She started passing notes with me shortly later, and then began sitting/standing around me while we'd talk and mess around with each other. It was just some good ol' fun to me, i didn't realize what was actually going on until a dance came up in october (2.5 months after school started) and she asked if i'd go with her (alright, lame i know >_>; i got asked out and not the other way around). We went with some friends, and just danced, talked, and she got to know teh sweaty-me (i sweat pretty bad in hot environments, lol..she just kinda laughed at me though and told me not to get too close). Towards the end of the dance, i kissed her...the firstime i'd ever felt inclined to kiss somebody, and i was pretty worried about if it was ok that i did it, and if it was an "ok" kiss. We kissed again. Then i think i picked her up beneath the shoulders and lifted her above my head, spinning around in circles a time or two~ lol. It was so much fun. We made out in the backseat on the way to dropping her off~ we talked after teh dance and verbally confirmed we were going out.

Initially we didn't get together much~ her mom kept her pretty locked up, it was hard to get any time together. We'd talk on the phone though, and enjoyed seeing each other at school. The Math class quickly began talking to us and questioning us, which was kinda funny after a while~ twas all a bit of a rush. She had so much energy, was uber cute, and was exciting in a way i still can't quite place. But she'd had a firstlove, and couldn't let go of him. they had an odd sort of connection, which would kick in at times and leave me wanting of her attention.

Hearing stories of her and her first love, i knew she was everything i could hope for, and fell in love with her. Unfortunately, she had a problem with sharing everything oging on though, and what exactly she was feeling at times. She didn't feel inclined to share things with me, just the opposite in fact at times~ I knew all it would take was one person that could magically open up, and i'd be gone. I feared it so much, and pushed again and again for her to talk to me...but it never really happened. I'm skipping a lot, but she's found somebody that i think will truly let her experiance a happy, pure love like i was able to find with Mia initially...and i just sorta think of myself (in her life) as Sam was for me. Kinda holding a place while she found her next love~ i just wish her better luck than i had ^_^ Things didn't work for us, but she's an incredible person, who truly deserves to find that person for her. I desperately wish it could have been me, but i think a part of me knew it would turn out like this, which is why i always felt this sinking feeling when she kept something from me, along with a desperate sort of fear. I still love her, but i think i've submitted that she's not ment to be mine...second person i could ever find love with, second time it hasn't worked out.

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My point in all this, is that love comes in many ways...and everytime, you'll fully believe you've found it, and it'll be an adventure~ a rush at times, a heartbreak at moments, and when it's all done you may get the urge to say, "That was a waste of my time! i never cared about them anyway", but you'll know deep down inside that the truth is (normally) closer to, "I wish things could've been different". But a true love, seems to start out simply as a friendship~ they're the ones that last, when you bond based on a friendship, and develop a desire to be inseperable~ and fall in love.

(will be continued in second post)

  • 09.03.2006 11:03 AM PDT
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When you find somebody who goes out of their way to try and make you feel better when you're down, someone who doesn't care if they don't understand~ first priority is making you smile, and then worrying about what led up to everything; thats a TRUE love. Nothing starts that way, it'll take effort sometimes, always a willingness to change and conform a bit: but always hang onto what's MOST important to you. Don't let yourself decay, you gotta be selfish at times too. Even though your priority is being there for a lover, don't let them walk all over you and do things which make you uncomfortable. Talk things out, don't run. Nomatter how strong or true the love, if you run from it, it'll never blossom into that flower you've been dreaming of.

I'm not going to tell you that trial and error's a blast, it hurts like hell at times. I've only ever felt a love for two people, and it didn't work out with either. I still love one of them, but i think she's about to stumble onto something far better~ and nomatter how lonely i feel (because it couldn't be with me), i am glad she'll be able to experiance it.

Love is an ultimate mystery, it'll push the bounderies of yourself, and teach or/and clarify many things about yourself, in the blink of an eye. Each lover is a learning experiance, a chance to better understand yourself, and explore the meanings behind all of your emotions. It's all beautiful, and although the heartache feels like doom at times, don't run from it. Use that pain to reflect on everything you're going to miss, use it to find what you could have done differently, use it to your advantage~ never run from it. You might miss something spectacular.

Let love be your strength! My only dream in life is to find that special lover/soulmate, and make a family for myself. I dont need a million dollars, i dont need a yaught, you can take my video games and TV, all i need is my special somebody, and enough money to live without worries of starvation or our home. Maybe it is a lame, simple dream...but i think it's all i could hope for.

  • 09.03.2006 11:04 AM PDT
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There is no love. Only hate.

  • 09.03.2006 11:08 AM PDT
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For Carnage, Apply Within.

I have returned from the Untamed Lands. MOAP is dead.

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some are just after the action
Woot.

  • 09.03.2006 11:10 AM PDT

It was a cold day near the southern base in Blood Gulch. Cortana and I were relaxing over a game of Go Fish, WHEN OUT OF NO WHERE 700 BANSHEES CAME FLYING IN!!! I GRABED MY SPARTAN LASER AND LET HELL REIGN DOWN UPON THEM. I HOPPED IN THE NEAREST WARTHOG AND TOLD CORTANA TO GET IN.

I don't fink this is the right forum :/

[Edited on 9/3/2006]

  • 09.03.2006 11:10 AM PDT
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Lol, well..this seemed kinda random >_>; so i posted em here. What IS this forum for?

  • 09.03.2006 11:14 AM PDT
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"Whatever exists, whatever in creation exists without my knowledge exists without my consent. These anonymous creatures may seem little or nothing in the world. Yet the smallest crumb can devour us. Any smallest thing beneath yon rock out of men's knowing. Only nature can enslave man and only when the existence of each last entity is routed out and made to stand naked before him will he be properly suzerain of the earth."

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Lol, well..this seemed kinda random >_>; so i posted em here. What IS this forum for?


The Bungie.net community, and how to improve it, and such. Your threads would probably (but to even this I am unsure) be better suited in the Flood.

Interesting though.

  • 09.03.2006 11:15 AM PDT
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You know....I totally see how this could be related to the 7th cloumn and it's community.

  • 09.03.2006 11:23 AM PDT
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ok

  • 09.03.2006 11:27 AM PDT